It’s a wonder I haven’t abandoned all my ideals, they seem so absurd and impractical. Yet I cling to them because I still believe, in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart.
Anne Frank
Some days I feel down. Rather, I feel like I’ve let someone or something down. Not because of any identifiable reason or because it has been brought to my attention. Instead, I’m a little down because I feel like I’ve disappointed the person I want to be. The positive impact I’ve made in the lives of those around me and in the world is not enough to outweigh the negative and I can’t shake the disappointment I feel. It’s not self-pity or lack of recognition but rather acceptance that the day has ended and I didn’t achieve my goal for the day.
My only hope in my life is to be the best person I can be. I want to do more good than bad. Help more people than I hurt and generally try to be a person of good in the world. It’s not for a sense of satisfaction, even if I do get one from doing good, it’s not for praise or glory, it’s only because I’ve seen so much bad. I’ve been met with hate, I’ve been disappointed, I’ve been hurt and I’ve been alone and the world does not need any more of that.
I fail a lot at this goal. My emotions get the best of me and I create problems or let people down but I hope that no matter how many times I fail I keep trying. Most of all, I hope that people know that I try to do everything I can with a happy heart and for the good of those around me, even if it isn’t always clear.
